Expecting to Be Expecting


I’ve written and re-written this post so many times, I’m out of clever comparisons and easy ways to explain what we’re going through. So I’ll just say it.

In December 2015, Jk and I stopped taking birth control. After a year of expecting to be expecting, we’re not even close. We’ve confided in very few friends and family members up to this point, but lately I’ve realized that something therapeutic happens inside when you let a secret out.

While sitting in church on Sunday, I had a revelation. It should have occurred to me sooner but I definitely wasn’t ready for it. This is the thought I had… Make this process of starting a family as fun as possible! It won’t be the way I had previously imagined. Taking a pregnancy test, surprising Jk, finding out the gender, having a baby. But when have we ever been traditional?

For this reason, I’ve decided to share our journey openly and honestly. It will be hard—it already has been—but I want to document it all. Doctors’ appointments, medical tests, what happens when we get results, and what happens when we get no answers at all.

“If God answers your prayers, He is increasing your faith; if He delays, he is increasing your patience; if He doesn’t answer, He has something better for you.”

Here's to discovering exactly what He has in store for us.

Comments

  1. Miss PitonJanuary 23, 2017 at 4:16 PM

    Love you! Thank you for letting us in!

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  2. UnknownJanuary 23, 2017 at 4:31 PM

    Love you guys!! You both are strong! You've got this!! ❤️❤️

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  3. wstacijJanuary 23, 2017 at 5:21 PM

    Love you two so much! Excited to hear about your journey ❤

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  4. KristalynnJanuary 23, 2017 at 9:13 PM

    It's ALWAYS a good idea to rally people around you. We'll send prayers your way!

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